good bye

good bye.
i am leaving forever
its time for me to go

i should say that it was fun while it lasted
but in reality it was not.
actually it was horrible

you made me a horrible person
you made my life so miserable
you made me be the worst that i could ever be

I lost many things while it lasted
the people i cared for left me
and others just gave up

yet you are still there, smiling
the whole world is at your feet
and those who left me, most not all, are there too

this whole suffering, i just can't bare it anymore
my heart aches, my soul scream
my eyes cry

I want to leave you behind
but you have chained my heart
and it cant be free

oh if those first words where true
if i could just leave and never come back
if i could just say good bye

but i cant.
will i ever be free?

still here

The leaves are falling once again
its been a year, and I am still here
nothing has change.

It seems like life takes its course,
things change, rotate, come back
and I am still in the same place

I imagined so many different things
and I now contemplate a different route
this road is taking me nowhere

The sun shines, the clouds move
rain pours, children laugh, people die
and I seem to just exist

The life that once seem full of hope
is now full of deception and pain
the bright light is now dim

the stars are falling once again
the moon bleeds, the sun darkens
life goes on, and I am still here.